mind dump

Look at this...my second post in 2 whole months.

When I first started blogging I called my blog "All my Tediousness upon Thee." I was a line from William Shakespear's Much Ado About Nothing. After all what is blogging but the tediousness of my life being posted for the world of the internets to see. And honestly, who really cares?

That being said...here's some of my tedious thoughts to share.

I've been sick with a cold/bacterial/alien invasion for the past three weeks. I would almost start to feel better and then be hit harder in a new part of my body. Now I'm tackling it with antibiotics. I'm not a big have a sniffle, run to the doctor kind of person but decided it was time for the big guns. It seems to be working but I am exhausted.

It's the kind of exhaustion that even when you are are awake you feel a bit out of it, disconnected. When I went outside today...it almost seemed unreal, hyper real (it was so bright). That's what happens when you spend the day in semi-darkness. It's these kind of days when I feel like I'm living in my mind...or someone else's mind if I've spent time watching movies, reading a book or playing a video game.

I've been watching Caprica and it's renewing my fascination is virtual reality like in the book Snowcrash and the Otherland Series.

The other night, since I was feeling miserable, I got up and spent time surfing the internet. The good and bad about blogs is that you get to read little snippets of other people's lives. Somehow I came across this mommy blog - 5 kids, sews & knits, home schools the kids, grinds flour to make her family homemade bread. She probably makes her own soap too.

For a few moments I felt inadequate...and then it hit me, I don't do any of that stuff because I have no interest in it. That is not the life I want to lead. 1 kid is enough for me to handle, I find sewing incredibly boring, I could never homeschool my kid (I love him too much and he is way too much like me) but am pretty decent teaching other people's kids, and I'd rather spend my time eating than cooking. I don't have the skills to live a like Little House on the Prairie but I can navigate myself and my family comfortably through the 21st century and I'm pretty proud of that.